Isobel Cassio

weight

2011-01-14T05:10:00.000-08:00

I have started my diet plan for almost 1 month.

I don't dare to stand on the "weighting machine".

I'm afraid!!

I'm afraid that my effort is useless.

OK. I have to admit that sometimes I ate ice cream and snacks.

But, it is really SOMETIMES only!!

I do not even eat MORE!!

I vow of my honesty!!

One of my colleagues told me that he had lost 10kg since he started working at here!!

OH MY GOSH!!10 KG!! WHAT A BRILLIANT LOSE!!

I want too!!
What I most envy is he said that he didn't even eat less and even ate RICE after working.

Sigh. Why god didn't help me ??

OK. I'm going to stand on the " weighing machine" and see my result on the last day I work.

I think it will be on 20Th Feb.

PLEASE!!

I BEG, GOD!!

HELP ME THIS LITTLE GIRL!

I want to be slimmer and prettier.

Indeed. I know we should be satisfied and grateful.

But, I just want have some improvement of myself.

I'm not greedy.

I still like what I am now even though sometimes a little anger flooded my mind when seeing the mirror.
But, I do not HATE what I am now.

So, please do not take any good thing away from me.

Okay? ^^

REPEAT: be slimmer and prettier.

~Isobel's handwriting~

Sick

2011-01-13T08:36:00.000-08:00

Sigh. I have fever, running nose today.

I really damn damn not feeling well today.

But, no matter how uncomfartable I feel, I sill have to work.

I still have to stand at there. I still have to manage to show my smile to the customers even though one of my hands is taking tissue and keep on scrubbing my red nose.

I really feel that I am near to the heaven,,,,,,,,.

Luckily, I feel better later.

The amount of the usage of the tissue have been decreased.

Thanks god.

Oh. Isobel!

Remember to drink more water!!!!

You have to take care of yourself!! Who will care about you ven if youself are not?

I'm not happy and even can use "sad, depressed" to descrive my mood when I am with my family.

I don't want to write the problem I meet when I am with them.

I just keep pn praying that the problems can be settled...

Today, I tell the supervisor that I want to resign In the end of this month.

However, she says that she hopes I can work until 20th feb so that she still has time to employ chinese workers.

What can I do?

I like this job because I like those colleagues.

But, I am afraid that I have to time to learn the driving lesson. I hope that I can the have my driving license before going to the college.

Besides that, I want to go to saloon to have a treatment for my this terrible hair!!!!

BUT, YOU KNOW THAT I'M THOSE THAT DON'T KNOW HOW TO REJECT OTHER PEOPLE!!!

SO HOW?

~Isobel's handwriting~

confusion in 18

2011-01-11T07:41:00.000-08:00

I thought that it is a relief after taking spm.

I thought that it will be a long term honeymoon after spm.

However, it is naive.

Perhaps I'm not a pessimist. I'm those who think to much even think to the dark part when I have nothing to do.

Seeing friends have started to study in college on January makes me feel like not happy.

One of my friends even told me to stop waisting time but go to study.

Hey, man. I'M NOT WAISTING MY TIME.

I WORK TO GAIN MY WORKING EXPERIENCE.

SOMETIMES I EVEN READ STORYBOOKS TO IMPROVE MY ENGLISH.

SO, is this waisting time?

Is it that you have to go to a place where called college and open the books and listen to the lecturers, otherwise others are defined as WAISTING TIME?

But, what I hope now is please let this 2 months pass swiftly.

This is the first time that I'm eager and desperate to start my study life.

Maybe this is intuitive. Human start to appreciate when they lost the things.

And, I keep on praying that my dream can come true.

I really had put all my effort in my studies last year.

My nose even bled when I was burning midnight oil for the preparation of history exam!!

I hope that God has seen my effort.

What do I want is not much.I just hope that I can go to where I want.

Sometimes I feel sarcastic that what I kept on praying and praying, without knowing how many time I have prayed to get something I want is an easy task for some people.

They just have to open their palms and they can get it.

This is life and Fate.

~Isobel's handwriting~